sometimes i just need rest

well last night was a God-send...and VERY well needed.
I just REALLY needed a rest from all the chaos.
all the prep for the Mater Dei concert and the Liwanag Concert AO1 and Alum acts, work, school, and just finding time to pray and make sure people are doing better. it all gets the best of me. and i get sooo empathetic to what others are going thru that i find myself falling too and sinking lower and lower with all the stress, negativity, and expectations placed upon me. it's hard to see LIGHT sometimes. =(
but i continue to walk....

i'm following the lines, looking for the answers to a prayer.
i fall looking for the signs, waiting for the signal that You're there.sometimes i can be so impatient for answers to my prayers.
and sometimes i look in ALL the wrong places.
but I MUST admit that God has truly revealed Himself to me.
And there's true beauty in finding Him within your friends
AND in those whom you don't know at all.
It's kinda like He's giving you silent reminders saying: I AM here.

it's really tough being there for others when your cross is heavy. i feel like i never know what to say. i don't know how or i can't seem to be the friend needed at the time. and it sucks to feel helpless.
i try figuring the time when miracles should happen to appear. but when it comes down to it, there's nothing more that i can do down here. i wanna place it in Your hands.
but He is soooooo good. cause in all the madness He is constantly fighting for me and for those who are weak and unable to fight the good fight. He is lifting so many of the burdens of our hearts. I testify to this for i have seen His unfailing Power at work. I see it in the Mater Dei youth and in the sacrifices of many, many people. i mean there's pure sacrifice...like having a family member in the undergoing surgery and choosing to still serve others outside of your family and for the concert. or being persecuted for your sacrifice, no matter how beautiful it is..and still continuing on without one complaint. or the mere turning of one's cheek. or just offering kind words to those who need it the most. i love it. it's just so inspiring.
you never know when life will turn around. and all i know...it's out of my control. you never know...
and this is why i continue to walk and run this race.

and there's none that compares to Your Majesty O Lord