i feel....

very tired.
stressed.
worried.
alone.
unworthy.
like crap.
like i am no good.
like im in over my head.
happy for noreen and michael.
giddy when i think about baby mikayla.
lonely.
sad.
like going to church.
like i have no one to talk to anymore.
like crying sometimes.
like giving up. completely.




i have....


so much planning to do.
God on my side.
a hard time dealing with my life.
like 15 arrangements to make for the concert.
to practice for daph/andy's wedding.
to make an attendance checkoff spreadsheet.
no time for myself.
not much time for rest.
to pray.
to practice.
to keep living.